I fear I'm starting to get depressed due to ual frustration?

I'd try to get your mental issues sorted first. You gotta recall that a ual experience with a hooker may not be satisfying or successful just because she's being paid. You don't want to trip over what you've built up to be your "last chance." There is more than ual frustration going on here ... The root cause is your feeling of inadequecy. Talk to a therapist. Your mindset can't be fixed by just changing the scenery. Tons of people with the "trappings" of bliss (money, , power, etc) who are miserable -- look at all the famous people who turn to life destroying drugs or suicide because they are so unhappy within themselves. Fix yourself from the inside out ... its the only way it works.